the other day I had a dream where I was talking with her and then I picked her up at the airport

and then we got to talking and I was like where are you going to stay BTW

she said she was going to stay with me (physically in the house) but not really going to be WITH me.

And this upset me to no end cause I was like
whats the point why should I even entertain the thought if that is the case? ARRRGHH

not really sure what happened next, the details are foggy. I wish I had remembered more, but it was a very upsetting, and perhaps fever dream
maybe thoughts of of why can't we be friends even tho I'm with someone else.

kind of like the same thing I struggle with, with another person too. She's close, we used to be so close, but things changed. Logically I really think I should just stop being her friend, but I just can't/don't want to stop. I want something from her that she has decided that is not a part of her character anymore... or so she says. I can forsee this being some bigger conflict down the road.

I'm friends with a variety of people. Some more than others, some less so lately. Some more so lately.
I don't know, sometimes I just want to discard all friends, get more, just start over or something...

But I still really like my friends

Met a cute Russian girl,  who speaks in kind of broken english, but she seems interesting

however when we were supposed to go out
she had her roomate with her (who did at one point say oh maybe I should go if you 2 wanted to do something romantic.., but she refused to let her take the metro alone... even thought that's how she got there earlier... whatever)

Then at the place, she said she  had eaten beforehand... sheesh

Good thing this place had some Hooka to keep her entertained...

But it seemed very strange..
But we've not met many times and maybe she was still nervous...

And then we got lost in DC coming home, that was AMAZINGlybad

I had to stop at a police substation to get directions, because I had skipped ahead, looking for a traffic circle that never was!

and at the end I got a hand shake...
hm well we'll see....